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How my 22 year old straight brother made me cry.

PREPARE FOR EMOTIONZ (more than Destiny’s): So… I’ve been having some troubles lately. You may have noticed with all the NON BLOGGING. It is a number of factors including international visas, new countries, MONEY, jobs, VARIOUS. But mostly it’s been about love. I have unfortunately found myself entangled in that cunty love thing, and it’s made me pretty vulnerable. Anyway, anyway, anyway…

After a day of not knowing if this love thing was going to last, or if I was about to be tossed aside, (do not take this Holly Go Lightly, I have been in love and burnt before fairly badly: See ye olde posts. So don’t think I’m a frivolous cunt…) SO I had a few hundred glasses of red. “GOOD IDEA” - scientists. Anyway, anyway, anyway… 

I saw my 22 year old straight brother was on Skype. Now… we have had maybe less than two, and no more than two Skype sessions. And previous to that, we have had very few D&M’s (except of course when discussing the merits of Billy Ocean’s “Get out of My dreams” classic hit, while getting classically high). I decide to call him and pour my heart out to him, while he’s in his apartment playing x-box with his roommates, in Otago, New Zealand on a tuesday at 3:30pm.

He stopped playing, took the computer into his room, we chatted for a bit, and then he told me: “You need to look after you first. You need to do whatever it is that makes you happy, you need to exercise, you need to socialise and you need to get out”. He then told me that he learnt all of this when he went through his own depression (was not aware of the depths of his problems). Needless to say, many tears were shed, and I connected with him in a way I never have. I can’t believe I’ve had support like that, right there, all along. I can’t believe I got it from my metal loving, stoner, beer guzzling younger brother, and how freely and easily it came. He then told me he was going to send me a link on depression. Something that got him through his darkest times. He sent me a link to this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTd3jvnx_f4

Mark Ronson ft Boy George - ‘Somebody to Love Me’…

…with the message: “Never forget to be happy”.

I fucking cried. And have never felt better about myself.

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